It's not fall yet but it's already so cold outside. It's gonna be a long, dark winter and I'm going to spend most of it sad and missing the people I loved. I'm so lonely in this city. I wonder if I should permanently move to another country after I graduate, like Lebanon or Australia where there's family everywhere. Or if I should try and make a new life here. I feel like my life's already over. I just feel so lost and I can't seem to get myself out of it, even when things are looking good. I'm just going through the motions for the people around me but inside I'm not okay anymore.